no plans

So my plan of writing every single day ended a couple of days ago!  It is a funny story now..but I got home late from work and when I looked at the  clock it said 12:11 am, which means I had missed my post and I cried. haha  But God def. taught me something from this, that no matter how hard we try our plans will not work out according to us, they will always be for his glory and plan.  Overall a great lesson learned :)  And I have decided to post every couple of days!  Today I watched a sermon on loving your spouse according to God's word.  Basically it mentioned how husbands are to love their wives as Christ loved the church, and wives are to submit.  This verse is very controversial, but I agree with it because it's in the Bible!  We are to serve our marriage partners as Christ serves us.  This sermon was very  eye opening and it has definitely made me excited for when I get married.  Summer has been pretty swell and God has been amazing (of course :)) ha

hide and seek

So my sister and I didn't get up in time for church...so I watched a Summit sermon online!  Once again it was awesome.  Today he talked about how people ask the question if God wants everyone to know him then why can't he just clearly show himself?  The overall moral is that God has hidden his ways so that those whose hearts want to know God will.  In other words, we have to have the right heart to know God! God wants to be found by people with a childlike heart, so that the only way they can tell people they found God is through him..not by human doing.  God will not be found in human achievement because that allows us to become prideful.  I never really thought of it this way, but in the grand scheme it makes sense!  Therefore, God wants us to continue to tell others of the gospel, but we must first pray that their hearts are changed by God so they can understand his amazing love.

lateeeee

So I have decided to start writing in this blog during the day...my night time thoughts are not so great. ha  Anyway today was an overall good day, worked and got to hang out some with the fam!  Going to church tomorrow morning so I'm pretty excited about that!

sleepyhead

Ahh I'm so tired.  This is about all of my thoughts for today. haha Oh and I have been eating more the past few days...I guess that's a plus!

ready for whatever

So I ate a veggie burger today that had something weird in it..not feeling so hot now! haha  Anyway, I'm trying to not care as much about what I eat.  My friends and I took pictures at the beach yesterday and seeing photos of my body made me realize that I do look too skinny for myself.  I just need to really try to gain weight!  I've also been thinking about school and getting back to my Christian ministry group..I'm so excited :)

life time

My friends are down!  I've had such a good day with them too :)  It's nice to be around Christians who want to build you up.  We haven't talked as much about God, but we still have time.  I love that God made us to want and crave relationships!

my weakness is perfect

So I'm still going through The Good and Beautiful God and it is an amazing read!  The chapter I'm on talks about how we are sinners but now that Christ dwells in us sin reigns no more!  It discussed the verse 2 Corinthians 12:9--But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  I love this because it lets us know that even though we are weak God can use our crappy selves for good!  The mess and struggles we are going through will be used for His glory, what could be more beautiful and refreshing?  This makes me think that the ONLY thing perfect about us is our weaknesses.  Crazy I know.

freedom

It's the 4th of July!!  Ahh summer is going by so fast.  Today was another lovely day!  I just had lunch with my mom and now I am relaxing until work.  I want to thank God for letting me live in a country where we are able to freely worship and love Him!  I hope to continue to grow with God..and I feel like I am really beginning to change :)

ahhh-mazing

Not too much to say today.  Overall a pretty great day :)  I still need to watch the summit sermon sometime tomorrow!  And tonight at work I saw a family with an adopted child and it literally brought joy to my heart.  I really feel that one day I will adopt a child which is an amazing feeling!

we are loved by God.

Went to the beach this am with mom :)  So enjoyable.  I am still reading The Good and Beautiful God and today I read about how we always say we are still sinners.  While we are still sinners, Christ dwells within us as sinners!  He paid the price for us and we shouldn't sit around and concentrate on how awful we are.  The book brought up the point, how can we produce God-centered holiness if we think of ourselves as self-centered sinners?  But sin is still in us and always will be, even though we were born again we still live in our old sinful bodies.  Also today a man and kid walked up to me and my mom asking for water because they were dropped off by someone and then his phone died.  I liked the opportunity to give him ice water but then he asked to charge his phone..which I was leery to do because that would mean him coming into the house.  He also made it so obvious that he wanted money..so it kinda felt like a set up.  But it felt nice to help someone in need..just wish I could have talked about God with him!

who?

I can't believe that it's july 1st already!  Summer is pretty much flying by..I shouldn't be surprised since this happens every year haha  So tonight I read a little of the Bible and went over the verse someone received from God when I asked her to pray over me.  It's Isaiah 54 and it's beautiful!  It almost brought me to tears when I read it out loud.  Today I actually had a thought about my eating disorder.  Why am I so concerned with the way I look?  I mean no one will remember how skinny I was when I die...I would rather be remembered as a great woman of God than someone who had a great body.  I hope to remember this thought because it's so true.  It kind of scares me to think that one day on this Earth no one will remember me...