The purpose of my covenant with the Levites was to bring life and peace, and that is what I gave them. This required reverence from them, and they greatly revered me and stood in awe of my name.
Malachi 2:5
My life over the past few weeks has been a complete roller coaster. It is crazy how you can put so much thought and effort into a path only to have it end. Not getting the job with InterVarsity felt like a bit of an end...but my journey with the Lord still continues. I am so happy that my hope is not in a career or job, but in God alone. I know that everything in my life points back to the beautiful story that God has written for me. I am not the same girl I was a few years ago. The fact that I submitted the application and walked into the interview shows how much the Lord has strengthened me. That said, I still have some growing to do in the area of confidence. It seems that I am confident in God...but not so much in myself. I know this phase of my life is going to push me to rely even more on the Lord. What is my next step?? I think God is calling me to trust Him more...and to put my worth and life plans completely in His hands.
The last couple of days I was blessed to spend time in Charleston with my best friend. This was just the rejuvenating trip that I needed. Being surrounded by so much beauty and TREES was refreshing. It was wonderful to get away from the normal and mundane tasks of life to go on an adventure. God revealed to me this weekend that I have been holding on to a false outlook of life. After college you are supposed to immediately land that big girl job, start making your way up the career ladder, fall in love, and purchase a home in your dream city. My life hasn't been anything like that....and honestly, I would not change it for the world. But why does that expectation of a life plan keep sneaking back into my head?? I know that life with God is exciting and unexpected. I want to embrace what God has in store for me...and I know that means I need to stop racing towards the future without enjoying each day I am blessed to live. Sometimes it feels like I am just trying to achieve a goal...which doesn't allow me to rest in the Lord and delight in being His child. Reminding myself of the verse in Malachi--God has promised me life and peace. This comes from admiring and loving the Lord with my whole heart. That is a journey I will forever be on...
