the cure.

The past two days have been completely crazy. ha  So, last night at work was my first night alone as the on duty manager...lets just say disaster!  I didn't really mess up my tasks, more so, I got really overwhelmed.  It was extremely busy...and we were understaffed.  The opportunity for me to cry out to the Lord came, but I did not take it.  Instead, I stayed in my state of anxiety.  When I got home I cried for about ten minutes..then it was over.  This really hit me today.  In my moment of need why would I not cry out to the Lord?  As humans it is so easy to just live on/for/with this earth.  I know God is calling us to so much more.  Today was a much better day--but I am glad last night happened to help me see how I let my feelings rule, not my God.  Tonight in small group we covered Matthew 5:43-48.  Someone in my small group asked, "when others wrong you do you recognize that as sin?"  I honestly never thought about it that way.  We just think oh they are rude, mean, or call them a jerk.  But in reality it should call us to think why would they commit that sin?  What is going on in their life?  As a broken person what are they struggling with?  How is sin reigning in their life?  Our response to this should be to love them.  This view helps us to love the so called "unlovable".  God looks on us and loves us--even though we are a dirty sinful, pretty much, disaster. ha  I thought this was completely beautiful.  Knowing Jesus, I should want to tell them about my wonderful savior.  How can I leave a sick person when I know the cure?