#tired.

All I can say is wow.  That is the past couple of days summed up.  Besides working a lot of hours...so much has been going on.  And now I am sitting here blogging...when I should be praying.  Why am I afraid to pray sometimes?  I know that answer.  I am afraid that God won't answer.  I know that doesn't mean he doesn't hear me--but it is easier to just not do something so it doesn't seem like you are failing if God "doesn't" answer.  Sometimes I think we don't see right away an answer.  My mind is running all over the place.  How can I focus?  Do I know which thoughts are from God?  I'm tired of running.  Why do I have such little faith?  I have numerous memories and stories of God's amazing power.  Why don't they seem as important now?  I need you Lord.  Silence my heart.  Quiet my mind.  You are so big.