schooled.

I struggle.  I struggle with confidence that the Lord is going to use me.  I constantly feel like I do not contain the knowledge that people seek in a Christian.  It is in these moments that I have to open my Bible.  1 Cor. 3:6-7, "I planted the seed in your hearts, and Apollos watered it, but it was God who made it grow.  It's not important who does the planting, or who does the watering.  What's important is that God makes the seed grow."  How beautiful it is to know that I cannot screw up God's plan. haha  Because I love the Lord I want to continue to learn more about Him and His heart.  I want to approach this process with wonder, and not just the want to obtain a certain standard of knowledge.  Ephesians 2:8-9, "God saved you by his grace when you believed.  And you can't take credit for this; it is a gift from God.  Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it.  For we are God's masterpiece.  He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago."  God has a plan for me and I have to trust it.  I am reminded of the ways I have grown in the Lord when I look at my past...Thanks God :)  I would rather learn things about God by going on an adventure with Him instead of "cramming"...life with the Lord is not an exam.  Something else God pointed out to me this week is my ability to compare myself to other brothers and sisters in Christ.  I look at them and become jealous of their knowledge and other spiritual gifts.  I realized that I should rejoice in our differences.  It is wonderful to know that God has blessed us with different gifts and talents to fulfill His plan!  I want to smile because God has brought my brothers and sisters on an amazing journey.  It is a personal one....and I should be happy about their experiences and walk with God.  Hoping to pray and begin to really live this mindset out.