wrecked.

When I thought God would wreck my heart at Urbana--did I truly believe He would??  I mean wreck in the most wonderful way. haha  It is only the second full day at this conference and I have felt the Lord constantly.  It is so amazing to be in a stadium with 18,000 people praising our great God!  It makes me so excited for when I will get to worship Him in heaven one day.  I have to say thanks to God for bringing me here.  For showing me that He loves us to the extent that He is willing to use us to bless and heal this world.  Through His power we are invited to love.  I am having a bit of a difficult time because my heart is all over the place.  I am the type of person who hears an idea or "call" and has to begin doing it immediately!  Obviously, this cannot happen.  I feel like a part of the reason this isn't the case is because the Lord wants us to rely on Him.  Having patience teaches us to come and rest in the Lord and pray before being sent out.  This conference is totally mission based--and it is so awesome to see people ready to jump into a new culture and serve Jesus.  As of now, that is not my calling.  This does not sadden me at all.  I love being a part of the process where I get to pray and see others sent out.  It is beautiful to watch people say "yes" to giving their whole life to the Lord.  Even when I don't feel like the Lord is asking me to pack my bags and learn a new language, I know His work is still being done.  I can smile with the joy of others being sent to broken places all over the world.  I have a passion to love the Lord.  My passion is to glorify Him.  I'm not sure of the one thing I "do" best or my calling--but I think the best thing I can do is love the Lord with my whole heart.

Jesus replied to Simon, "Don't be afraid! From now on you'll be fishing for people!"  And as soon as they landed, they left everything and followed Jesus. --Luke 5:10-11