easy huh?

So my little funk has carried over to today, all though as the day went on it has improved.  I was able to spend my day off on the beautiful beach..which was so amazing!  While reading my book on the beach it began to talk about how we think we can never measure up for God.  This is so true, but God still wants us to love him, and not be shy and hide by thinking we are not enough for him.  We always think that we have to do mission work to please God, but most of all he wants us to serve others as a motivation of his love and not guilt.  This thought was so awesome because sometimes I think the only way I can live a true Christian life is to be a missionary or in a similar field.  Really God just wants me to love him and spread his word.  This sounds sooo simple...but for me it's not!  I don't understand why it is difficult for me to talk about someone who is so outstanding?  I mean who cares if people think I'm crazy, the only opinion that matters is the big man upstairs :)  I guess I'm figuring out being comfortable in my own skin and truly letting go of what others think for his purpose.  Once again, easier said than done.