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Cried myself to sleep talking to my sister last night.  Life is so incredibly hard!  I have this very positive mindset but it's just so hard to follow through!  I say that I want to live life to the fullest everyday, but when does anyone do that?  I just want to be truly happy.  I know that the only way this will happen is by trusting God.  Last night me and my sister talked about how we worry so much..and that this is letting God know that we don't trust him.  I mentioned that the feeling would probably never 100 percent go away and she was surprised.  I think maybe I am not giving God enough credit.  He can totally change anything he wants in our life!  Anyway I ate a lot today, feeling a little bad about it..but I need to gain some weight!